you know what's gay? i have to see that my ex every day.
as some of you may know, we broke up because she didn't feel the same way as she did before (we went out for 8 months). a week after we broke up, i tried, and did, get us back together, although i decided to break it off because i was afraid that it would become like kicking an dead horse. that was last june. we didn't really talk that much over the summer.
when we got back to school, i tried moving on, i was talking to several chicks, which kinda digged me, but alas, i could not continue this, for my eye was still fixed on my ex-girlfriend. she was/is my best friend, and i am to her also, still. we would still hang out from time to time, at school, she's kind of cold, but when we're alone at her house we always have something going on. it's there, i swear i'm not crazy. for example, we lay next to each other and stay really close when we watch t.v., and we still act the same around each other (excluding the bf-gf stuff).
one day, i told her i still liked her, this was met by an uncertain answer, i took it with a negative tone, but we didn't really have time to talk because we were interrupted. that happened in december. on january 1st we hung out and we were really flirting with each other, but i didn't make a move, because i thought it would be rejected.
now, we still talk and we've been hanging out still, i'm waiting when to make the right move. everything's got to be perfect. even now i'm still not sure if i should do it. from my perspective, it is a love/hate type of relationship. some days i just want to lift her in my arms and kiss her, and other days i just want to sock her in the face. it's pretty obvious that i like her, and she knows, but i know she would never really make the first move (if she's interested) because she's pretty prideful and whatnot.
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